Starleaf.. 星星、叶子の故事

First, two Days @ Work

2006-07-04T21:32:00.000+08:00

Alright..after the long long break from studies and exams, I was EAGER to get some work done. The two months at home had "transformed"me into a computer games addict, a regular nap-per,a korean drama addict, an owl etc etc.. amazing at how much 2 months can do to me yah?

ANYWAY..Yes!!yesterday was finally THE day for work!!!=D I woke up like 6am which was like so long time ago's practice and felt really excited and got ready for work=D

8.45am, I reached IBM Place tower 1. I approached the receptionist who asked me to pick up my name card and wait at the lobby. Den i looked ard me and saw many other pple holding the same bright orange name tag like me. ok.. muz be my colleagues. But wait a minute..this looks weird. I was the only ger there. Den fear escalated when more and more pple pick up their tags and they were all guys*faint*

8.55am, we were all gathered into a meeting room. Den the HR told me tt this year's intake coincidentally all guys except me and another ger who will only be there from second day onwards. Guess wat? My jaws DROPPED..yes literally i stared at her in disbelief and i think i only recovered from my state of shock after she ask me twice if i was ok*faint somemore*

Ok..it turned out things wasnt as bad..there was another ger tt came and pushed the number of gers in this year's intake to 3.. as compared to 23 guys. Yes.. there are a total of 26 of us..and more than 88% are guys*faint the 3rd time*

Well tt's more or less abt day 1..got some other funny stuff along the way tho .. but hahaha it was fun tho super tiring maybe becuz of having slacked too long liaoz=X Day 2 more briefings, talks games etc more fun but even more tiring...

oh!! nearly forgot to mention..I collected my notebook!! IT's IBM T43!!! the newest!!! =D hahahaha tt's it for this entry time for bed!!=D

《五月》

2006-05-25T23:47:00.000+08:00

悠闲的五月
犹如笼里的小鸟重获自由
随心所欲展翅飞翔

甜蜜的五月
一起度过彼此的生日
有你真好

复杂的五月
刚解决数月的误会
却又再次陷入苦恼

不安的五月
隐藏多时的秘密
时机几时才会出现？

多姿多彩的五月
有喜有悲的五月
令人有所期盼的六月

Absence explained..

2006-03-16T16:53:00.000+08:00

Nearly 6 months since i last posted an entry. This used to be a place where i vent my emotions via poems written based on past events. So i guess no blog entry means a good thing i guess. At first i really din have the luxury to blog and then there was a slight procastination. All these was from the last entry til the end of my exams.

But since then til now..i have not found any single reason to blog. =P In fact, as much as i would like to compose more poems, i realised tt i have lost the ability to do so. I simply CANT write when i'm feeling happy and blissful. Well not a bad thing i supposed.=P

Today marks the third month of us being tog. Time really flies. I could still recall my mixed feelings as well as the various obstacles that we faced. It really wasnt easy, but every time we met with a stump, he was always there, encouraging, caring, understanding, assuring..I couldnt ask for more*blush*

Until now, i could still vividly remembered the times he touched my heart. From our first date to last sat when he sang me a song by Du De Wei on the train=P It may not have been sung by the best singer or be free from errors but it's the sweetest song i've heard=P hehehe..

Thanx dear! Thanx for everything!=D

madness

2005-09-22T20:35:00.000+08:00

public class Wanhui

{

public static void main(String[] args)

{

String time;

String activities;

boolean bored;

boolean awake;

If( time= = day )

{

activities = lessons + projects + meetings;
System.out.println("When will day time end?");

}

else if ( time == night )

{

activities = VB programming + debugging + creating reports;
System.out.println("When will night time end?");

}while( awake == true)

}

else

{

activities = solitaire showdown;
System.out.println("When will i get another game to play?");

}while ( bored == true )

}

System.out.println("I dun have life!!");
System.out.println("Wanhui screams and pulls hair");

}

《单纯》

2005-08-28T11:47:00.001+08:00

反复地听同一首歌
一路以来的心路历程
仿佛如昨日的剧情
沥沥在心

回想那天的偶然对话
原来我一直没有长大
别人的眼中我是单纯
是种美德仅仅无存

是否如此我一直怀疑
是种大家已丧失的美德
还是让人利用的弱点？
让时间来证明

因为单纯我受到关爱
因为单纯许多事我无法明白

逐渐地成长
我想我会迷失方向
慢慢地领悟
有天我会像大家一样
遗失那份单纯。。。

过程

2005-08-15T20:22:00.001+08:00

成长的过程中
谁不曾伤心过？
学习的过程中
谁不曾迷惘过?

心境疲惫的时候
谁不曾想过放弃?
面对现实的时候
谁不曾想过逃避?

烦恼、谁不曾有？
伤心、谁不曾会？
逃避、谁不曾想？
希望、谁不曾梦？

一样的一个夜空
不一样的时空
不一样的心情
不一样的感动

迷失了方向
要如何坚强？
失去了斗志
我还是我吗？

《放》

2005-07-28T23:31:00.000+08:00

有些旋律百听不腻
有些故事铭记在心
人生总会坎坷崎岖
情绪也会潮起潮落

有些歌能让你产生共鸣
旋律能触动你内心深处
歌词仿佛能让时间倒流
回到记忆中的莫一页

俗说经一事长一智
只要能把眼光放开
一切将显得渺茫

没有人会得孤军作战
再失意再孤单的时候
切记有颗星一定陪伴

活在过去是种无奈
勇敢放下活出精彩
新的一天一定等待

Out of the blue

2005-07-21T10:53:00.000+08:00

Been getting comments for this blog. Many reflected tt my blog has been rather pessimistic.. reflecting only the 'not so gd' feelings. Some oso commented tt my poems evolved round the same theme, same feelings except that each time i use a different analogy.
Regarding the first comment, i guess blogging is among the most useful ways for me to regain 'my balance' whenever unhappy things happen. Recently, I have acquired this habit of looking at my past entries. I guess most entries have been abstract enough which is partly my objective for blogging. -Shrugs- Recently discovered that I'm really v jiat liat at conveying msg to people esp. my tots and feelings.
As for the second comment, hmm.. the negative connotation may well mean the same to some pple tho' , but each entry carries a different story each time. Yes, i agree that most entries have the '无奈' feeling. But beneath tt feeling, there is always something more to it.. A msg that i wish to convey but unable to do so ..

宁静的太平洋
突然一阵漩涡
周围一切消失
纯属一瞬间

恢复了宁静
大海蓝天合一体
无边无际
宇宙的奥秘
令我叹息

《离别》

2005-07-19T17:05:00.000+08:00

离别之即不许流泪
回忆固然乙烯清晰
将来固然渺茫无绪
但离别何尝不是为了将来的重逢

离别之即虽然感伤
依依不舍也是难免
交换祝福只是过程
心中都深深希望这不是最后的相逢

希望我们再次相遇
希望大家好好努力
我们期待再次重逢
希望人生能再度交叉。。。

《天空》

2005-07-11T00:20:00.000+08:00

阴霾
使思潮起伏
是乌云密布
也是一种成长

晴朗
使自己重生
是新的开始
也是无奈的结束

任性
请恕我任性
天空的晴朗
是我的向往

思念
独行难免孤单
但我会坚强
就为追寻梦想

归巢
将来没人能料
但请你们等待
小海鸥一定回来

《仙人掌》

2005-07-07T23:52:00.000+08:00

矗立在黄色地带
不起眼也不依赖
自得其乐地存在
对外界它无期待

茫茫沙丘一点绿
看似友善有玄机
身上无数锋利刺
令人们敬而远之

能屈能伸是公认
背后挣扎无人问
故作坚强是本能
深怕别人费心神

不愿敞开心之门
宁愿远离过路人
看似孤僻一个
心无余力才是真

《残缺的海鸥》

2005-06-13T23:46:00.000+08:00

它好奇地探出裂缝
迎面吹来阵阵凉风
眼前一片蔚蓝碧绿
兴奋之余有点焦虑

用尽一身所有力气
挣脱出狭隘的空间
好奇地看着这世界
慈祥脸孔出现眼前

扑进那争开的羽翼
顿时觉得安全无比
享受母亲无微照顾
心却渴望那片天空

梦想飞过丛山峻岭
梦想飞过壮观瀑布
梦想翱翔无尽蓝天
梦想实现、梦想体会

成长、它慢慢成长
奢望、它渴望飞翔
尝试、它不断尝试
受伤、它遍体鳞伤

同伴一一展翅高翔
而它却屡试屡伤
望着大家飞向未来
它却只能望着大海

残酷、无情的字眼
模糊了他的视线
残缺、残缺的海鸥
磨灭了一切理想

《彩虹》

2005-05-28T14:44:00.000+08:00

雨后会有彩虹
点缀蔚蓝天空
吹来一阵轻风
心情不再紧绷

雨来临的前兆
我却察觉不到
落汤鸡的狼狈
心情突然好累

暴雨总不好过
天气变得阴霾
思绪变得悲哀
心怎么打不开

心情不再紧绷
吹来一阵轻风
彩虹点缀天空
雨后会有彩虹

《胜利》

2005-05-03T23:44:00.000+08:00

从前的默默无名
今时的一鸣惊人
摆脱了重重困难
这精神令人振奋

焦虑忐忑的心情
不安急躁的表情
兴奋欢悦的一刻
骄傲感动的时刻

由始至终的执着
一切辛劳的付出
认真求进的态度
换来永恒的感动

再次掀开新的旅程碑
再次证明我们的实力
黑马来势汹汹的气势
想必令旁人刮目相看！

《泪》

2005-03-28T22:30:00.000+08:00

一滴一滴地掉落
悄悄地滑下脸孔
疲惫愤怒的心情
无奈无助的表情

泪水是咸的
对事麻木了
周围、不在乎
内心、无感觉

百般挣扎。。。。

头脑空白无下策
强颜欢笑是选择
理智情绪不一致
混乱心情谁得知

《记忆》

2005-03-08T23:38:00.000+08:00

简单的一个举动
却有种言不由衷
是因意外的惊喜
还是心情的作祟

打破以往的作风
作出破例的举动
顿时领悟了温馨
时间仿佛为此停

给予片刻的温馨
却使我澎湃思绪
整夜的辗转难眠
到头还是不了解

像记忆库的锁匙
把回忆从中释放
突如其来的袭击
使我失去抵抗力

捉摸不清的心境
裹足不前的心情
挥之不去的背影
潇洒离去的情景

辗转难眠的夜晚
无法平复的情感
记忆犹新的难堪
伴随我整个夜晚

《等待》

2005-02-26T23:03:00.000+08:00

无声的抗议不代表默默地接受
无泪的离去不等于静静地离开
疲惫的身躯已无力做任何解释
和平的了断应该是最好的结束

美丽的谎言来编制童话般的梦
心境的转变却粉碎所有的美梦
晴朗的天空没有暴风雨的迹象
爆发之后却往往令人无所去向

心情的写照无人能理解
情绪的变化成理所当然
封锁的心情得不到释放
等待的也只是日落夕阳

《亡》

2005-02-25T22:22:00.000+08:00

精心的天罗地网
单纯的一个脸庞
看似天使般的心
隐藏魔鬼般的梦

无声无息、无丝无迹
静静等待 , 猎物降临
小心翼翼、不漏心机
默默觅食 , 猎物点滴

像单纯的小白鹿
像无知的小绵羊
踩着死亡的步伐
走进险恶的天网

无法回头、只能往前走
后悔莫及、只怪自己蠢
自寻灭亡、只得旁人笑
眼前黑暗、只得自己扛

《无题》

2005-02-13T00:25:00.000+08:00

睡意已浓，却无法入眠
彭湃思绪，却无人能解
复杂心情，却无能倾诉
百般思念，却无法见面

累了，却无法放下
倦了，却无法释怀

眼前只有牢牢的铁窗
身后只有冰冷的瓦墙
日夜被困在黑暗之中
希望就像隐形的曙光

像失去自由的宠物
温顺让你肆意摆布
想争取自由
却舍不得那习惯性的依赖
想做回真正的自己
却不知如何开始

《回来了》

2005-02-11T16:21:00.000+08:00

不一样的国度
不一样的星空
不一样的经历
不一样的心情

暂时离开城市的喧嚣
暂时放下自身的烦恼
暂时去享受
暂时去体会

旅程总会来到结束
生命仿佛回到起点
想有一段新的开始
却发现烦恼依旧

回来了

《星、绫物语》

2005-02-07T07:25:00.000+08:00

ling, this is for u =) Thanx!

夜空，漆黑的夜空
乌云，遮蔽了星空
期待，期待着雨季
盼望，盼望着彩虹

一望无际的星空
一颗星独自闪烁
寂寞、无奈的它
期望有人能了解

大风吹起，乌云散去
美丽夜空，星星成群
独星不再感到寂寞
仿佛找到另一片天空

它知道自己不再孤独
永远有星星听它倾诉
它看见小鸟自由翱翔
从中看到无限希望

《星心》

2005-01-30T22:49:00.000+08:00

空虚的心灵
寂寞的身躯
苦苦的寻觅
想作回自己

无私照亮着大地
为人们带来欢喜
但是孤独的自己
却躲在一旁抽泣

天上所有的星星
有着同样的经历
看起来仿佛开心
其实内心谁洞悉

《萤火虫》

2005-01-24T18:12:00.000+08:00

一个个漂浮的烛光
像为黑夜带来希望
你们生命虽然短暂
但却有宏大的理想

夜黑了不要紧张
迷路了不要绝望
萤火虫永远在身旁
让你不再迷惘

漆黑夜里的曙光
温暖人们的心房
城市灯光虽璀璨
但不比你的光芒

《童》

2005-01-22T01:26:00.000+08:00

童年仿佛很遥远
回想起来如昨天
当时小孩的童年
无忧无虑没有烟

看见小孩的纯真
不禁想到现代人
大家只顾往上登
忘了待人要诚恳

小孩小孩真单纯
脑子总是有疑问
长大之后却不问
害怕别人笑他笨

小孩都想快长大
认为考试压力大
大人都会想童年
怀念当时的时光

《欠扁问答题》

2005-01-20T17:53:00.000+08:00

皇帝的衣服叫什么？
龙袍
皇帝的身体叫什么？
龙体
皇帝的眼睛叫什么？
龙眼

haha =)

《为什么？》

2005-01-19T17:24:00.000+08:00

为什么等到失去，才会懂得珍惜？
为什么发了脾气，才会想要冷静？
为什么受了伤害，才会想要避开？
为什么直到后悔，才会想到当初？

为什么我的烦恼，没人与我分享？
为什么流泪的我，总是躲在一旁？
为什么我的委屈，没有人能了解？
为什么害怕的我，只能装作坚强？

太多的为什么， 却一直没有答案
太多的不了解， 就只能一个人承担

阴霾的天气，终究会下雨
雨后的天空，应该有彩虹
沉重的心情，几时才能放晴？
雨后的天空，几时才有笑容？

《沙漠》

2005-01-17T22:50:00.000+08:00

明知是陷阱重重
我还是走进沙漠
明知会伤痕累累
我还是一直行走

眼前成群的毒蝎
阻挡不了我的坚决
身后一座座山丘
使我无法回头

黑夜是那么寒冷
白天是那么酷热
为什么变得那么快
我一直无法释怀

走着、想看见奇迹
想着、看见海市蜃楼
现实、我无法面对
逃避、是唯一选择

《星》

2005-01-16T02:39:00.000+08:00

星星
给予大地一丝光明
让黑夜不再冷清
让小孩不再恐惧

行星
是天空的过客
就像是一段没有经营的友情
永远离我而去

流星
像是一个个无法兑现的诺言
给予希望
又亲手毁掉

恒星
永远记忆犹新
相处的每一段时光
永远不会忘记

《我的兄弟》

2005-01-12T09:27:00.000+08:00

5.45pm
Me and Dor arrived at Lido 2. Channel U personnel was not there yet. Decided to go for dinner first.

6.13pm
Dor went to check if the Channel U personnel was there. No signs of them anywhere.

6.26pm
Me and Dor went back to Lido 2 to wait for the personnel. At the same time, we were cursing them for being late.

6.37pm
The Channel U personnel came. Dor got the FIRST pair of tickets. It comes in a small folder. I was crazy over it.=)

6.50pm
We enter the theatre. My reason: Outside so many pple, sure wun see WonBin when he comes ~ i noe i'm short~ well my decision proved to be right! =) We came to our seats - S1, S2- i almost fainted, almost fell down too... over-excitement~ We got the second row tix!!!~~!!! ^0^ From our positions, we can very easily tape down the grand entrance of WonBin and oso the interview that was going to be held. Dor started experimenting her digital camera to set the settings so as to capture the best photos=)

7.00pm
Excited. Very excited. I kept staring at the entrance and at the same time reminded dor constantly to be prepared.

7.05pm
Yes 93.3 DJ Liyi started giving away some posters. Unlucky me.. i din get them. =( We were told that WonBin will be going for seafood dinner tt night but location unknown.

7.07pm
Was told WonBin will be arriving soon! Everyone became excited.

7.09pm
Director of 《我的兄弟》 entered... Amist the clapping, i said to Dor: “快点快点，准备准备，要来了！！”
“来了来了！！！白衣的！！看到了吗？？”
yes.. WonBin entered.. He was wearing a white suit! ~白马王子！！~
The interview started. First speaker was the director. I wasn't paying attention... Bz looking at him=) .
He started speaking!!!!! So soft.. So shy~~!!~~ hee... The mic that he was using failed.. haha .. and he Smiled!!! His usual silly smile.. the first smile tt night!!!! hahaha... so 可爱！~ Weird tho' others used tt same mic but no prob.. when he started using got prob... heee...
DJ Liyi asked him to say a sentence in Chinese!!!! He looked a little shocked, then he smiled again!!! the boyish smile tt will 迷倒众生~~
Amist tt smile, with a tinge of shyness, he spoke. Juz a very simple sentence but tt's enuff!!!! =)

7.33pm
WonBin left the theatre. Sad.. but feeling happy as well... Finally got to see him in person.. 满意了！=）

7.37pm
The movie started..

Comments on the movie i'll not gif.. 大家自己去看吧！=）

It's definitely a memorable night! =)

hee... crazy wanhui~~

2005-01-11T11:43:00.000+08:00

皇天不负有心人
总算没有白白等
今天去看首映会
一定感动流眼泪

元斌元斌今天来新
巡回宣传before 当兵
这次拍摄《我的兄弟》
是否对作品感到满意

要等两年你在出击
放心大家不会忘记你
耐心期待你的作品
一定再次创奇迹

打油诗

2005-01-08T14:25:00.000+08:00

《压力、恐惧》

压力
它无时无刻地跟着你
要如何克服不溺毙
这是现代人的难题

恐惧
人人都会经历过的情绪
在看到考试题目时的霎那
同学们用力斗动的身躯
或在看到尖酸刻薄的老板
回想那时恐怖的经历

《流星、叶子》

2005-01-07T22:10:00.000+08:00

流星的陨落，
是梦的开始，
还是生命的结束？

掉落的叶子，
是自由的开始，
还是永远的结束？

thoughts.. more thoughts

2005-01-01T01:48:00.000+08:00

Enlightenment? maybe not... i dunno.. i'm not tt 刀枪不入 yet.. -Shruckz- i'm juz surprised at how things could change .. i mean.. my personal thoughts.. well this probably wun make any sense to pple reading my blog... it's ok.. i''m juz penning down my thoughts for no audience in mind .. i guess "weird thoughts and totally un-understandable feelings" are still popping into my head... hopefully firewalls can be built soon.. hopefully b4 sch starts..

《蝴蝶》--- 蔡淳佳

2004-12-30T20:36:00.000+08:00

你像蝴蝶飞离我的世界
我看不见你美丽的脸
眼泪流成河
你还是学不会往回飞

你像蝴蝶彩绘我的世界
让我学会感动和感谢
我不停唱你还是听不见
我想说的话
你再也无法笑着回答

你现在的另一个家
有没有会唱歌的月光
是不是下雪会出太阳
会不会你还是想家
我在着里
还陪着你呼吸
我看着你
以为只是去散心

hmm.. i tot this lyrics was meaningful... abit sad though..

想飞

2004-12-28T22:21:00.000+08:00

一种空虚的感觉突然来袭
这感觉实在令人无法呼吸
到底为何如此消极
我无法也无可洞悉

突然想挣脱世俗的枷锁
想张开翅膀寻找自我
想创出属于自己的天空
想飞，想离开的冲动

勇敢地去追逐梦想
勇敢地去实现理想
飞出牢牢的铁窗
享受自由地飞翔

向往着蔚蓝的天空
向往着碧绿的大海
任性、不顾一切地往前飞
为生命的旅程写下一页又一页的篇章

Expect the Unexpected

2004-12-26T22:36:00.000+08:00

Many things have happened recently, many of which are beyond my expectations and these includes things which i have told frens tt are impossible.. this may sound a little abstract but those who noe me well shd noe wat i meant.=)
Being getting mood swings quite frequently these days too.. and sometimes got me into real bad mood. i guess my grastic problem adds on to my temper as well.. sigh.. i guess i'm getting pre-school anxiety.. not tt i haven been to sch.. juz tt i'm kinda anxious abt sch starting.. maybe cuz i haven really had enuff fun.. the hols was short in comparsion to the other time.. well one week left and i shd enjoy to the fullest right? but how when i'm getting mood swings so bad tt i dun even feel like toking to pple? sigh..
明天会更好... hopefully..

my first posting

2004-12-23T21:43:00.000+08:00

hmm... ok.. today not too bad... had quite a fun day wif wl and jf..=) we went to watch 'The Phantom of the Opera'. Not a bad movie but not tt great either. It's a movie but screen in a musical type of format... i dun really have the patience to listen to the songs in order to get the msg conveyed.. sigh.. there was no subtitles as well.. we watched at ps.. but apparently ah ma went to jurong pt to watch and there were subtitles! both are gv branches btw... not fair!!! * protest!!!!!!!!
tml will be the last day i'm teaching my tutitees.. well.. mixed feelings i supposed.. they, although naughty, are adoreable.. especially jl... she so cute!!! =) tml shd be v fun wif lotsa games and pressies to be given away.. =) hee...

Quote from 'The Phantom of the Opera', " This is the point of no return. You have already passed the point of no return"

Well, think of it, how many times in our lives have we missed doing something? Be it a golden opportunity to get promoted or simply just a date? To all out there: chances only comes once.. dun miss it.. live ur life to the fullest! =)